adik payah pergi sekolah

Sepanjang musim PKP ni (sebelum daerah Johor Bahru disahkan zon merah), adik saya kena pergi sekolah seminggu sekali je, iaitu pada hari Selasa. Sekolah aliran perdana (sekolah kebangsaan) masih berjalan seperti biasa, masih kena datang hari-hari. 
Kesian jugak lah tengok parents saya, mati kutu fikirkan cara untuk sogok dia ke sekolah agama. Saya risau juga adik saya tu tak nak pergi sekolah agama sebab apa. Tapi mana dia nak bagitahu. Disebabkan dia suka makan, jadi parents saya umpan lah dia dengan makanan best-best untuk jadi bekal ke sekolah agama.

Pada suatu hari, saya bertugas untuk memujuk adik saya ke sekolah agama. Tapi sama seperti minggu yang lalu, drama air mata tetap ada. Sampailah parents saya bertindak sedemikian.

Umi    : Adik nak pergi sekolah agama?

Adik   : TAK NAKKKKK (beserta air mata)

Umi    : Ayah nak pergi sekolah agama?

Ayah    : Nak!

Umi    : Ok! Nanti umi kasi bekal cheesecake kat ayah tau!

Ayah    : Yeay! Dapat bekal cheesecake!

Adik    : (tergamam)

Adik    : Umi.... adik nak cheesecake.... (sambil menangis)

Parenting done right? Wkwkwkkwkwk

Akhirnya misi berjaya. Adik saya pergi ke sekolah agama jua. 

Saya pernah cadangkan kat parents saya untuk berhentikan je sekolah agama adik saya tu, bukan sebab saya tak nak adik saya tak dapat didikan agama, tapi sebab saya tak nak umi ayah saya susah-susah layan kerenah dan ragam adik saya tu. Kena fikir ayat untuk umpan. Kena labur duit lebih lagi untuk beli bekal. Tapi saya pasti itu bukanlah cadangan yang bagus. 

Adik saya bersama beg bekal khas dia. Bukan biasa-biasa. Dasar anak manja zaman modenisasi teknologi terkini. Kakak dia dulu pun tak extra macam ni huehue.

Korang jangan malas pergi sekolah eh? Kalau malas, boleh lah jadi geng adik saya ni.

whaT?! can i smoke weed already

Pardon me to use Malay in this post (as if I got international fans here LMAO)

Kejap, nak guna aku-kau ke nak guna saya-awak kat sini? Adoi satu hal lagi nak kena fikir.

Imma just stick typing this in English. Plus, I haven't learnt and spoken English for vvvv long time. I'm actually planning to type in Malay since I never am confident to use English, but a few days ago I saw someone shared something sounds like "you have to keep using English to be confident" so I do.

My birthday cake is ~sponsored~ by my aunt, Mak Ngah. She's been baking for years and how I always dreamt of built-in oven because it looks cool (like I've always seen it in TV cartoons).

On my birthday, I made a ~survey~ of myself and shared the link through my Whatsapp status (which means only mutuals can view and fill in). Here's my takeaways from the survey:

1. I have to balance my emotion and..... logical thinking? rational thinking? What should I call it-

Yes I have to admit that I somewhat over-expressive and I keep telling people of random informations (mostly about myself, but I also share interesting scince facts) that people never asked for. As example, I forced you to read this. And did I tell you I want a built-in oven? Yes.  Did you ask? NO. Now, see?

2. Be confident and keep loving myself. Even sometimes I feel like narcissist.... but I like it. I would prefer it this way. I always wanted to raise my hand or show my ideas to everybody but I /was/ scared. As soon I grew up, I feel like I was raised to not make silly mistakes, resulting me avoiding opportunities.

3. Anger management ;-; some people do see me as outgoing and friendly person or is it only me thinking of myself like that? HAHAHAH. But I DO have to manage when and how I should be angry. Only my close friends would know the worst part of me .-. Yeah and I want to change this attitude because how unhealthy when I am in anger even it does not occur often.

4. I hope I am able to send more cards to my friends. Because one of my respondents did receive a ~special~ (yes it is! because I never made on anything like it other than this) birthday card for him (oops sorry it's a HIM) I made a few years ago. Well we're not that very close friends we're just good but I can't remember why I made it..... but definitely gonna repeat it for others. Wait until my letter reaches your mailbox, okay? 

5. I AM GREATLY TOUCHED by my friends' ideas of bringing me to hangout. I WOULD VERY GLAD TO. Someone suggested fun fair (I never go to one, I really wish we will!), someone wants go makeup shopping (OMG YES PLEASE I NEED GUIDANCE FOR THAT), someone even wants to go skydiving with me (s/he said s/he wants to see my reaction..... BRING IT ON because I will prove that I am not afraid of heights), there's also a person wants to bring me to the bookstore (oh I haven't been enjoying to any bookstore for a long time because the last time I went one was to purchase academic books uh oh... so boring). There are more to be listed but here are several to be mentioned. If only we had chances and time..... AND ONLY IF CORONAVIRUS DO NOT EXIST AAAAAAAA

Review: Definitely will repeat such survey for upcoming years. LOL. 

Kbye semua.

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edit: this is actually a draft. Let me add this.

I am beyond grateful that I met wonderful and beautiful people throughout high school. Honestly, my high school did not end the way I wanted. There are some things I wish to do before high school ends but I missed it. Is this because I read too much teen novels during my high school years................ I guess so. One thing (old/older/elder) people often say; high school years is the most remembered memories. I- am not sure. Maybe I have to graduate from a university first then I would have the rights to validate the statement.

BYE. 

last day of high school -highlights

Took our breakfast! Syazana is hiding behind her water bottle

This is me with Nasof. Before the invigilators call us in, we all glanced our notes for the last time. Nasof usually had read any notes, to avoid herself from panicking for sure. She sometimes got along with me, or Dina, or Ecah to recall back our lessons. Dina and I hold onto belief that we both won't discuss any subject papers we had to sit, so is Nasof.

My examination slip. Have no choice but to study in Pure Science stream.

That's Audi, taking photo of our inviligators. Basically the hall is full of purple :D

Pride.

Wait, I don't remember what were we doing during this moment...

Some kind-hearted parents sponsored us pizzas! There were also spaghetti and chicken chop being served.

Major throwback to videos some of us created during junior years.

I don't own any of the person in the photo.

We got to busy into the party that we forgot to eat our cake. The cake was left near me so I took the responsibility to *take care* of the cake.

Aryssa was unboxing her gift. I also get excited because I know who is the sender. LOL

This purple baju kurung was intended to be worn on this day buT then we all agreed to wear our batch T-shirts for our last paper.

Sending our room keys to the office. Pardon our long fingernails.

 My room.

My roommate's corner. She already tidied up her space. Only her noticeable fluffy bunny on stacks of pillows are left

Requested my parents to eat at Hot Meal Bar, Pusanika, UKM.

Bye.

sailing

I was in physics extra class. We were all learning about Force and Pressure. Cikgu Ajwad was teaching Bernoulli principle which states ... oh man you can go search on Google by yourself. I am not really fond of physics so- ;-;

'Has anyone ever went sailing?'

A memory hit me. Because I had have before, but it was a very very long time ago. Since Aryssa was sitting beside me in the class and was showing an interest of sailing, then I told her I had went sailing when I was 8, or maybe 10. I guess she's the first friend in the high school to know that I had 'sailed'.

It was not a good memory though. My primary school used to have a student to represent Johor on a national perahu layar tournament. I assume they want to find a history repeater, so they hunted for students from the first rank class, which is class of mine. I remember, it was only Lisa and I that were appointed to join the sailing training, located near the JB port. The school administration could have thought that choosing us is the best decision since Lisa and I did quite well for our academics, so having an extracurricular activities won't affect much our studies, they think.

Yes I went to the training, alone. I couldn't remember why Lisa had not joined me, but she got her own excuses. I certainly remember that I was alone because I remember I was crying during the training. I met few friends apparently, but they're all had a glimpse of sailing experience, had an idea what the coach was teaching, unlike me. Zero knowledge.

How can I not be insecure at the moment. Plus, they were all older than me even by one or two year gap. Only one that was the same age as me, but she attended the training irregularly. Everytime she's present, I will always get along near to her. I was told by her that her brother or her sister (I couldn't remember) was a trainee there too. (Most probably representing Johor already) No wonder she's skillful too. The traits run in the blood, I guess. I witnessed her sailing by her own on the water. Without any adults on the sailboat. Coaches stood near the jetty. I also witnessed her yacht went upside down. Yes, exactly the mast (that enormous sailcloth flag) is soaked into the water (but don't worry it's waterproof) and the boat is floating invertedly. But she managed to turn the sailboat back to its normal state. Without getting drowned. I could never relate. If I was ever in her place, I might not live today.

I stopped going training because due to overwhelm insecurity I endured and I legit cried on the training centre because I surrounded by people I am not familiar. (Although they treated me nice, me as a timid kid with terrible social skills back then, anxiety can attack anytime you know). Thank you Cikgu Rafidah and Cikgu Balvinder for sending me to the training centre with one hour of jouney, sometimes treating me with foods, and wiping up my tears.

I could have been representing the school in sailing if only I get proper practice under certain circumstances I set up. LOL. Until now, never have I ever represent the school in any sports tournament. Such humiliating.

Bye. Don't tell others, okay?