stalk

Hi.

Yesterday, we took our UKM2 online test (like for the third time in my life) in computer school lab. Before we enter the test, each of us has the option to choose a language to be used in the test. Either Bahasa Melayu or English, I clicked on 'English' and typed out my IC number and clicked 'enter'.

Dang.

'YA ALLAH SEJAK BILA AKU PILIH BAHASA INGGERIS NI'

Yup, I recognise that never have I ever took the test in English and always in Bahasa Melayu.

I suppose to take the test at 2 pm on schedule. I want it to end early, so I came up early, about five minutes earlier.

A few minutes later, Syamil showed up.
I told him 'Aku menyesal pilih Bahasa Inggeris, Syamil'
And he took the test in Malay, beside me.
I was a little bit stressed out, sitting beside him.
DIA PERGI SEMAK SEMUA JAWAPAN DIA SEBELUM KE SOALAN SETERUSNYA.
He is somewhat an OCD freak. Though I enjoy befriending of him.

Miss Fifa was the teacher in charge. She was my English teacher. She walked around the computer lab and pat my shoulder. She said, "Bagus bagus, orang yang buat guna English ni I sayang".

Aww.

Despite the compliment, I still do regret for choosing English. There's a section where you have to state or describe the words given. I am not good in vocabulary. I exactly had no idea when the test asked for the meaning of 'meticulous' and 'superstition' and much more new words that I don't know. Here you can see that I might be a reader, but not really for English. Some of my entries are written in English for the sake of improvement. (Ok, is my sentence just now sounds insincere?)

So we are going to have a short discussion regarding the word 'stalk'.
What comes up to your mind when talking about 'stalk', huh?

'Okay class, hari ini kita belajar imbuhan'

-alk as in
Chalk
Walk
Talk
Stalk

I was taught these in an English tuition, not school. I even did my own rhyme using these words and the rhyme sounds nonsense and silly, but might be funny for others. I could not recall the rhyme but I have the book where I wrote it on. During that time, I was proud of it. Yeah.

Reaching adolescence, I knew another meaning for 'stalk', means kind of an act of peeping someone virtually on social media.

WHY DO PEOPLE STALK? That's the question.

People stalk for persons they only interested. If they are not, they would not do it. Right? So do I.

I stalk sometimes. And realise how I spend my time so 'efficiently'. It feels like to know someone's behind the scene. For me, it is interesting to know how someone could change, from the time they were little until who they are now. That is my type of entertainment :/ I can see myself someday I would get arrested for making someone feel harassed or disturbed by only, stalking. *sighs*

Not everyone is willing to tell about how their life goes. Not everyone has a decent life we are. Okay, after we listen to the story we may think his/her is just decent, but it may be shameful and disgraceful for him/her. I do not really mind if someone stalk me, in the Internet ofc, as long he/she stalks without making me ashamed of it, and also as long he/she does not violate my safety and privacy. If you stalk me in real life, I would call the police immediately without hesitation.

Some people are just moving on. They live for present and future. They do not like their past being talked as a conversation. I remember what my physical ed teacher always said, "Past is past" after he gave his speech to us because we (unintentionally, seldom intentional) came up late to the class. ps: do not come late to class ok.

Whatever your life is. Be grateful!
I have read a quote saying, 'Bad choices make good stories' and I agree with it.

I am sorry if you do not get what I am trying to share. Lately,  I have been so much random to everything. When I was eating with my friends and at the moment, a hilarious thing appears in my mind and suddenly I burst out laughing. Is that normal? I feel not. Is there any medication or treatment to cure me? Huhu

It is exam week. Next Monday is the last day. I have only Addmath paper left. I should be studying.



...... epilogue .......

*someone comes in the computer lab in sudden, wearing school uniform*

Ivan : sorry, Miss (for late). I was involved in KMC (Kangaroo Math Competition) ceremony

Syamil : *whisper* Kau tak pergi ke Sab?
aku : Tak, aku tak dapat 'medal' tahun ni.

I realize that I am still not really capable in math. Maybe just a little slightly better compared to my friends. There's so much to improve and enhance. To be honest, I do get jealous for those who afford to enroll any *expensive* extra classes or courses. Once I was mad at Nana for forgetting and not applying what she learned at Kumon. To be specific, I think I have treated her like a daughter to a fussy mother. For that reason, I put all my effort to explore by myself. On the Internet. Can I declare myself as 'self-taught'?

Ok bye.

july has ended

Aku takde benda pun nak cakap kat sini sebenarnya. Secara kasarnya, aku adalah benda nak taip kat sini tapi takde poin sangat dan post kali ini bersifat rawak.

Aku dah ada draf pasal hari lahir aku tapi tulah, tiba-tiba rasa tak nak post pulak. Draf tu dah siap dah, cuma tak masukkan gambar lagi. Tapi gambar semua dalam tablet, asyik terlupa je nak transfer. Sebenarnya, laptop aku takleh transfer pun sebab laptop aku takde tempat cucuk USB (ada tapi aku buat benda tu takde, malas nak cerita huh). Aku send gambar melalui Whatsapp je HAHAH tapi yang bengong nya aku send bukan sekaligus. Sekarang tablet pulak dah kurang siuman.

Alkisahnya begini, satu hari ni aku ada jugalah sekali berdoa nak phone baru. Esoknya, tab aku jadi sewel. Sampai ke harini, aku takut nak berdoa minta phone baru. Kat sini aku dapat pengajaran. Untuk dapatkan sesuatu, kita kena korbankan sesuatu. Aku minta phone baru, dan Allah tarik balik nikmat tab aku huhu. Untuk sekarang, kita berkomunikasi guna laptop yang rupa macam tab gergasi ni hehe. Sejujurnya aku rindu whatsapp weh.

Tapi takpe, ni aku ada satu gambar yang sempat aku ada, yeay!

Barang perempuan. Aku tak guna lagi sampai sekarang.

Bayangkan pada pagi hari jadi aku bangun pagi je ternampak benda tu. Nasib baiklah bukan hantu kotak terbang ke apa. Dah elok-elok berdiri tengok muka kat cermin lepastu sambung hempap katil balik. Sebab tak tahu nak 'react' apa punya pasal. Ok cukuplah satu spoiler di sini. Tengoklah kalau aku dapat semua gambar yang aku nak upload tu nanti, aku akan pertimbangkan nak post ke tak hehu. Kalau tak, biarlah draf itu kekal sebagai draf buat selamanya hehe.

Tapi melalui hari jadi aku hari itu, aku dapat pengajaran. Ada benda lagi penting selain birthday wishes and hadiah, iaitu ; apabila ada orang menghargai kita. Yang tak wish tu pun tak semestinya tak menghargai. Apabila dihargai, kita pun jangan lupa menghargai orang tu balik :') Thanks for all the prayers, wishes, and gifts!

Oh ya, ni mungkin lari topik tapi masa hari jadi aku (9 Julai) ada pencalonan jawatan exco kat sekolah aku. Dan masa birthday klasmet aku lak, Ilhan (24 Julai) tu pengumuman jawatan exco. Ilhan bertanding dan dia dapat kerusi. Aku bertanding dan aku TAK dapat, tapi takpe. Aku gembira dapat pengalaman tulis CV, kertas kerja, dsbg selama aku bertanding. Tak sia-sia aku kempen "Jangan undi Sabrina sebagai exco" xD

Aku selalu terfikir kalau ada orang betul-betul mengikuti perkembangan blog aku. Yang selalu baca, yang selalu singgah, yang selalu stalk tu, terima kasih. Aku rasa malu sebenarnya, eh takdelah malu sangat. Kalau tak, dah lama aku delete blog ni. Tapi aku betul-betul malu kalau ada member tiba-tiba cakap pasal blog aku ni di luar alam maya. Dah pernah ada kes klasmet aku petik nama blog aku ni. Nasib baik lah klasmet je, tapi malu tu tetap ada. Kau jangan main-main, ada bapak kawan aku siap pernah print lagi blog aku ni tau. Aku tak tahu nak bangga ke apa sia. Dahlah bapak kawan, kalau kakak abang dia ke, adik dia ke, takpe jugak TT

Ketika post ini ditulis, aku berumur 15 tahun, 3 minggu, 29 hari. Ya aku tahu, korang tak kisah.